I SLEPT! <dances a little happy dance> Finally! It was GOOD sleep too! Now if I could just figure out how that happened I would do it again! <giggles> Perhaps it is the beginning of a routine? We can hope. I DO know that when I am with you I feel SO relaxed. There is something about your voice, your manners…that just relax me and make me feel sleepy. I can close my eyes and imagine laying in your arms, hearing you breath…feeling your warm skin next to mine…and just drift off….

Perhaps you are right, love. Perhaps once I am “home” things will be different and many of the things that have been “wrong” will be right. I hope that is the case. Things have felt SO wrong in my life for such a long time. I could use some “right” for a while! Thank you, love for working so hard to make things right for me. I know you do. I know your intentions are always towards me. You will never know how much that means to me. To know that I am not always having to plan for myself because no one else will. To feel relaxed….to know that if I get it wrong someone will be there to help me fix it…or maybe that someone has fixed it before I ever even knew it was wrong. To not have to worry that MY thoughts and feelings will not be considered. To know that no matter what…I am loved.

I hope you KNOW how much you have done and continue to do for me. I hope you KNOW how much you mean to me and the difference you have made in my life. I hope you KNOW how much I love you and how grateful I am. And I hope…in some way….I can help you to see how truly loved you make me feel. And in a few days…when I can finally lay this body to in the arms which created it…it will rest. It will FINALLY….truly rest…the way it was meant to rest. And it will live the way it was meant to live. It won’t be long now, love….

I am eternally your adoring wife…..D