My most precious V,

I have SO enjoyed our time together the last few days, love. It has been so nice to hear your voice and feel you close, to see your beautiful face and see the love that shines in your eyes every time you look at me. It has felt so good to be able to be open and honest with you, even if I AM still hesitant at times. It is nice not to be afraid…and it is SO wonderful to feel hopeful, to have that wonderful feeling that you get with new love. The amazing part is, I know me well enough to know…that feeling…never goes away with me. I will always have that feeling for you. Every day will be fresh and new. EVERYTIME I look at your face, whether it is tomorrow or 15 years from now, it will be like the first time I ever saw it. You will eternally “turn me on”…and I will forever find that face…to be the most amazing thing I have ever seen.

I hope you have been able, love, to feel the change in my attitude and demeanor. I hope you can tell how much I love you and how much you mean to me. I hope you KNOW that I trust you with my life and that I no longer WANT to be afraid. I cannot promise you that on occasion those old habits and feeling won’t set in…but I can promise you that I don’t WANT them to…and am making a conscious effort to stop them. I want our life together to be fresh and new. I don’t want to carry or bring a bunch of crap from previous lives into it. I know that a lot of the past has made us who we are today, but I also know that it does not have to define us and we have the choice to let those things make us or break us. I choose NOT to let them rule me any longer.

SO….when you look into my eyes…and yes, love…you will be looking into them much more often…know that the eyes that are looking back at you are for you only and choose to no longer be inhibited by the hurts and wounds of the past. Know that when those eyes cry, they still hurt from it, but choose to no longer be controlled by it. And know that those eyes have lived for this moment in time….to be able to see the face of “the other”….and to FINALLY be complete…to love the way they were meant to love…and for me to be the woman I was created to be, in all my glory.

FOREVER….your ADORING wife…D