Good morning my precious husband! I hope you slept well…and hope that your day with your family will be a good one. Please take good care of yourself and don’t hurt yourself moving! I need you in good shape! One of us HAS to be…:)
As usual, I have thought of you ever since you left. I am so sorry for your frustrations, love. Unfortunately, they happen to us all. I don’t know WHY I want to FIX them! And all you want is for me to listen and be there! I don’t know WHEN we are going to learn to do what comes naturally to us…we are BOTH wired that way….and then we are always thinking of the other one and doing what we think is “right” instead of doing what comes naturally to us. Please know love, that I will NOT be offended by it. I may be amused, but I will NOT be offended. It is often my first impulse as well. We were made to compliment each other, love. When are we going to learn that? We have both been conditioned to being “alone” and having to function the way that others want and need…that we forget that we ARE two halves of the same whole…and we don’t have to do that with each other. We can just BE!
I cannot help but wonder what you will do when you become frustrated with ME. I KNOW the time will come…I guess it has to, but I hope that when that time comes…that we will handle that frustration the same way. For some reason, it seems to clarify things for me…and set my head straight. SO…you have my permission, love. You do not need to ask…or worry about my feelings…do what comes naturally, my prince.
Today….quite by accident…I met a wonderful couple! WE ARE NOT ALONE! They too like us, met in SL. They too like us, are separated by many miles. They too like us plan on being together…and they have been together in SL for 2 years now. It was such an inspiration to me. I spoke briefly with one of them…and they shared a little about how much they meant to one another and how they had “been together” every day for the last 2 years. They both felt that they had FINALLY found “the other” and knew that they only existed before meeting…never having truly lived until they were finally united. I “watched” them interact with each other and the love that they felt was palpable. You could tell by the sweet way they spoke to each other that they were deeply in love. And tenderness and respect could almost be FELT in the way they laughed and teased each other.
I had to tell them what a rarity they are…although I am sure they know it. It is SO seldom seen…especially in a virtual world. But I am SOOOO grateful for our little world, love. I know many don’t understand it, but it gave me you…and if for nothing else…for that fact alone, I will be eternally grateful. They too, like us, most likely would have never met otherwise. THANK GOD for a place where two wandering souls can meet and find the one they were made for. It is SO amazing!
Please remember my love for you as you go about your business today, my angel. I am with you…forever…D
[2010/05/18 16:22] El Firecaster: I am HOPELESSLY in love with you, ***!
Vanish Firecaster: Is that bad?
El Firecaster: I hope not! Because regardless of what it is….there is NO stopping it!
Vanish Firecaster kisses her lovingly.
Vanish Firecaster: There is nothing bad in love.
El Firecaster caresses his face.
Vanish Firecaster: And I love.
El Firecaster smiles at him,closing her eyes.
El Firecaster: yes….and I NEED that love…SO desperately…
Vanish Firecaster: You have it.
Vanish Firecaster: Ever.
El Firecaster: Ever.
