Hello sexy one!….(giggles and crawls off to die!) I hope you slept well baby. I just keep thinking about our earlier conversation. You will never know what it meant to me, love. I NEED to hear those things. I PROMISE I will not be a puppet…I PROMISE I will not “lose” myself, but I NEED to hear your heart sometimes. Not just the “proper” things…not just the politically correct things…I need to hear the REAL things, even if they are not “pretty”…and even if they sound harsh. And I PROMISE that if I ever feel like I am being pressed or pushed, I will tell you. I know you think I am incapable of that…but I really CAN do it!

I know you often feel like you got “the better deal” out of all of this….and you somehow try to “even the playing field”. I am not sure it is possible. I will not hold it against you, love. As I said…I give you permission. You have my permission to be selfish with me and to tell me all the things that float around inside your head…the things that you hide for fear of sounding overbearing…or unfair. There are SO many things that we cannot change, SO many things that are imperfect. The only perfect thing is our love…and it is enough, baby. It is MORE than enough, if we will let it. I believe that if we give that love permission to flourish, that what is meant to be, will be…and I can accept that.

I cannot change what happened in the past and there is probably little I can do to influence the future. The only thing I have control over is me…and the choices I make right now. I can choose how I react to the things that happen in the present…and you know what? Things are pretty darn good…so I choose to be happy! I have been told it is ok to be happy! I don’t have to be sad, I don’t have to eternally mourn my past…so I’m not. I am SO happy with you love! There is NOTHING I would rather do than to be with you. There is NO ONE I would rather be, than your wife.

You told me earlier that you wanted me….and that you can’t be without me. I feel the same way love. I know that you are sacrificing many things to make that happen. I too, will sacrifice whatever it takes to return to your arms. I know that my life will never be truly complete until that happens. And so I wait…knowing that in due time…I will return home…there is nowhere else for me to go, love. Even now….I am biding time…waiting for the day when the 2 halves are reunited and made truly whole.

Until then, love…we will explore and love and live our lives in the dreaming, knowing that it is where we met, where we will always be together, but not that which defines us.

Forever, your personal…:)…slave…D