My Precious Husband,

I hope you know what an impact you have had on my life. I will never be the same. Your love has changed me, it has made me the woman you created me to be. When I first unpacked the computer and set it up, I wanted to see if the speakers were working correctly and I just hurriedly clicked on a song that was in my Library. It was a song that I often listened to in the past….one that always brought me a reminder of what my life had been like and what I assumed it always would be. The music started and immediately I felt a sense of dread come over me. I became sad and troubled and found myself wanting to cry and then I suddenly stopped and told myself….”Wait! You don’t have to feel that way anymore!” and I felt myself brighten up as I began to think…”You never have to feel that way again!” I turned the song off and looked at the computer that YOU bought for me a long time as a smile came to my face. I DON’T have to live with that sense of dread anymore….EVER!

Thank you, love for giving that to me. Sometimes I DO feel sad, but it is only the longing that my soul feels and will always feel until at last, I am….once again…in your arms…where I belong. I hate to put too much hope in anything…it has always been my experience that things are never as good as you hope them to be, but somehow, I DO feel as you do, that….when we are once again re-united, things will change in my physical body. There are many things that cannot be undone. I know that. The effects of age and neglect cannot be reversed, but I cannot help but think that when I am where I was created to be, if nothing else, my mind will finally be put to rest and I know that will have an impact on my physical body. The “great longing” will FINALLY be quenched in EVERY respect….and I will be released to be who I was created to be…yes…I WILL fly again!

Please know, love…that I have not ignored all that you are willing to do to get me by your side. I know I kind of acted like I did not even HEAR your latest suggestion. It was not that. I WILL admit as much as I WANT to be there, it still terrifies me just a little! And to KNOW that my wants and desires will finally be realized, is almost more than my mind can conceive. There are just a few loose ends that I feel like I need to take care of before I come to you. SO, I will work even more diligently to see to it that those things are taken care of…and then…I will be free to be with you, love. So please….don’t think that I have not heard your proposal or that I am not considering it. It just sometimes takes a bit for me to wrap my head around things and let them soak in.

When we were together earlier…and you asked me to tell you that I loved you once more…it MOVED me. I know that quite often when we are together and I hear it come from your lips…the way you say it…the way my name sounds when it leaves your lips…it LITERALLY makes my heart leap! I LITERALLY feel something deep inside me MOVE. I thought it was just me! But when you said that, it made me think that perhaps you share that same feeling…and so…please know…love of my life…that you will hear that phrase, coming from my lips, every day…. for the rest of my life. I have waited a LONG time to share it with you…I will wait no longer…AND I intend to make up for all the years that I LONGED to give it to you and was unable to do so. You ARE the love of my life…the one I have waited for forever, the one for which I was created, my husband, my king, my partner, my LIFE. I love you, ***….

Immer…..D