She lay on the bed, the soft crimson covers hugging her body. It was still warm where he had lain. She nuzzled the empty spot with her nose…trying to smell him there. Her mind, as always, wandered to the wonderful moments they had spent together just moments earlier….
[16:02] Vanish Firecaster takes her in his arms… pulling her tight.
Vanish Firecaster: God, you are incredible!
El Firecaster smiles at him happily… biting her lip shyly… kissing him softly.
El Firecaster: Thank you, love.
Vanish Firecaster: You are so perfect. How can you be so perfect?
El Firecaster smiles… kissing him gently.
Vanish Firecaster holds her tight.
El Firecaster whispering… You only have to look no farther than at my creator for the secret to that.
El Firecaster kisses him again…softly… gently… tenderly… letting her hands caress his face… her fingertips moving to the side of his body as she gently runs them up and down.
Vanish Firecaster traces the lines of her face gently… carefully… caressing her lips… kissing them.
El Firecaster closes her eyes… feeling him caress her as her body trembles.
Vanish Firecaster: Thank you so much.
El Firecaster smiles at him…giggling softly.
El Firecaster: It was really fun! I have wanted to do that for a long time!
El Firecaster blushes slightly.
Vanish Firecaster: I loved it so much.
El Firecaster smiles…caressing his face….
El Firecaster: God….I love you!
Vanish Firecaster smiles at her.
El Firecaster giggles softly whispering in his ear…
El Firecaster: Did I make you mine?
Vanish Firecaster: Yes…Ever.
El Firecaster closes her eyes and breaths him in.
El Firecaster: Immer.
Vanish Firecaster: Ja.
El Firecaster kisses him tenderly.
El Firecaster: I will never leave you, love.
Vanish Firecaster: Neither will I.
El Firecaster: bonded….forever.
Vanish Firecaster: Mmmmh. I think that’s a god thing.
Vanish Firecaster: *good*
El Firecaster holds his face close to hers as she tenderly kisses his lips smiling at him.
El Firecaster: I think it is both…. a God thing AND a good thing! God…it is SO easy to be with you, love.
Vanish Firecaster kisses her deeply… rubs his nose against hers.
Vanish Firecaster: Yes. It is.
El Firecaster holds him close as that deep peace falls over her that often takes her over after she has been with him.
Vanish Firecaster: Did I ever give you a song by Pallas?
El Firecaster: Pallas??????
El Firecaster: your owl?
Vanish Firecaster: The band. No, there’s a band named Pallas.
El Firecaster sings an owl song… giggles
Vanish Firecaster: Tsss… vewwy funny.
El Firecaster: hoot hoot hoot!
Vanish Firecaster: hoot? That sounds like the fire siren.
El Firecaster: like an owl….
El Firecaster pokes him… makes her eyes big like an owl and HOOTS!
Vanish Firecaster laughs.
El Firecaster: I am a HOOT owl!
Vanish Firecaster squeezes her tight as he rolls around the bed with her laughing.
El Firecaster makes fire engine sounds.
El Firecaster: I can be a fire engine too!
Vanish Firecaster laughs… Oh yes. You’re sufficiently hot.
El Firecaster: HAHAHAHAAH… I just need… giggles… a BIG hose for my truck!
El Firecaster laughs!
Vanish Firecaster: Mmmmh. You’re SO impossible.
El Firecaster giggles… True!
Vanish Firecaster: It’s NO surprise your kids can’t behave.
El Firecaster: laughs hard… Poor babies! They were DESTINED to be bad!
Vanish Firecaster: Mmmh.
El Firecaster laughs.
El Firecaster: That’s ok…..you have some to pass YOUR genes on to!
Vanish Firecaster: Mmmh… true
El Firecaster laughs… traces his soft lips…pulling at the bottom one slightly…. before sticking her finger in his mouth… sliding over his teeth softly
Vanish Firecaster smiles at her.
Vanish Firecaster: *****, you are SO incredible at this.
El Firecaster smiles… this?
[16:21] Vanish Firecaster: I’m… sorry, I just don’t have words for it. But I enjoy every moment.
El Firecaster smiles… and so you should. That is what it is for. It is the way *I* love you. Just as you have asked me to let you love me… this is the way I show you how much you mean to me….
Vanish Firecaster: And you’re SO good at it.
El Firecaster: I SO badly want to reach thru the screen and DO all the things I say….I imagine them in my mind….and then TRY to bring them to life.
Vanish Firecaster smiles.
Vanish Firecaster: It will be.
El Firecaster smiles… touching his face softly…. closing her eyes and whispering….
El Firecaster: May it be so, love…may it be.
Vanish Firecaster: It will be. I know you think you can’t do what El can do. But trust me. We will do what we’re here for.
El Firecaster rubs her face against his as she brings her nose to his and rubs it back and forth gently….
El Firecaster: yes… yes….we will.
Vanish Firecaster smiles at her.
El Firecaster looks at him…a tear in her eye…
Vanish Firecaster kisses her lovingly.
El Firecaster: I live it over and over inside my head…thinking of it…. imagining it…. god….
El Firecaster feels the tear run down her cheek…. as she closes her eyes again.
Vanish Firecaster: I know. Me too.
Vanish Firecaster smiles.
Vanish Firecaster: And you’ll be a brave girl. And then everything will be good.
El Firecaster: yes… yes.
El Firecaster holds him tight.
Vanish Firecaster rocks her gently in his arms.
She downloaded the song…”Blood and Roses” by Pallas, listening to it over and over as tears poured down her cheeks. She watched them fall onto the crimson blankets below her as she ran her hand across the bed, trying SO hard to still feel him there. She pondered how many times he had heard this song and wondered where she was as he tried to find her. She remembered her title “the sleep” and thought it even more fitting than before. And she thought of how many times he had indeed followed her….immer. She remembered the picture of HIM that she kept in her heart and head…never letting it go…immer. He was indelibly printed upon her soul….immer. She imagined him peacefully dreaming, his breathing soft and quiet, his agile mind at rest, his inner being taking him to new places, hoping that she was with him there, hoping that thru the dreams, he could feel “the sleep” as she whispered to him…IMMER, my husband…immer.
