Normal is such a relative term, I’m almost afraid to use it.  Everything that was “normal” for me for SO long is no longer.  In fact, I have come to learn that some of it was terribly ABnormal.  It was good to be able to talk to you about all that…it kind of helps me sort things out.  My entire LIFE has been turned upside down and things that I held as true and dear have been brought into question and must be carefully re-evaluated.  I suppose that it is little wonder then that I balk at the slightest change and often find myself unbalanced and unsteady.  Quite a lot of this is brand new for me…and while it is wonderful and everything I ever wanted, it is still new and may require a learning curve.  But today as I lay in your arms and talked all I could think of was that it all felt so terribly “normal”!   I HATED to see your Holiday come to an end…was even afraid of it ending, but today felt SO good!   It was SO easy to just lay there and talk to you…once again about things that NO ONE would probably find of the least interest but us…and yet it felt good…and easy…and normal.  I found myself wanting more…wanting to talk longer…wanting to hold you longer, but confidant that we would soon be together again.    

I realize that our world is not one that most people choose to walk in.  It DOES have its’ difficulties.  And is at times precarious, currently dependant on so many things that are beyond our control, but it is MY normal now.  It is what I look forward to each day.  It is what sings me to sleep each night…it is the hope that one day we will realize our dreams that gives me the strength I need to hurdle the many obstacles that seem to come my way.  Quite simply put…it is YOU.  Thank you love, for normal!

Forever…your personal…:)…slave…D