My most loved husband,
Thank you for always leading me in the right direction and for gently reminding me of who and what we are and always have been. I DO NOT understand WHY it is SO easy for me to forget that fact.
Perhaps once again it has to do with the difference in the male and female psyche? It is something you have accepted and know to be true…it is a fact in your life…much like the fact that the sun comes up every day without fail. You know it will be there every morning when you rise…it is a fact. I, on the other hand have to be gently reminded, letting fear and uncertainty cloud my judgments…knowing that yes, indeed the sun does come up every day; that does not always mean that one will always be alive to see it! They are the same facts…they are just seen differently.
Thank you, love, for your patience with me, for never making me feel dumb or needy. Thank you for always holding me close and making me feel safe and secure. Thank you for always putting me first and for making me feel like I am the most important thing in your life.
[2010/04/17 14:24] Vanish Firecaster: *****, we have been together so many lifetimes. God knows how many times we’ve been married.
El Firecaster nods
Vanish Firecaster: God knows how many KIDS we had.
El Firecaster smiles… I hope so.
Vanish Firecaster: This is what we’ve been given now. Let us be happy.
El Firecaster nods… yes…I will. I just sometimes have to remind myself of what is important.
Vanish Firecaster: Look, even though I got the better part of that bargain, I too wish that things would have been better. But they are not. And there’s just so much we can do, and the rest we have just to accept and adapt.
El Firecaster: Yes… That was my conclusion too. I know it… I have always known it, I just sometimes forget it…and have to remind myself.
Vanish Firecaster: I know I have to be with you. That’s the most I can accomplish in this life.
Vanish Firecaster smiles.
El Firecaster kisses him.
El Firecaster: It will be good, love. We ARE good.
There are SO many things that you are SO good at, love. I know that many times you do not see them and often feel like you have made no impact in this world. You know that *I* see it differently. *I* SEE what kind of impact you have made on people and the difference you have made…but for you to say…that being with ME is the most you can accomplish in this life…that is the greatest gift you could give me, love! I am TRULY blessed and honored. I can only hope that I can find some way to show you how much that means to me…and to let you know that I too, feel that being with you IS my purpose and destination in this life. I sometimes forget my way, I let fear and past conflicts confuse me and cloud my thinking, but I WILL fly again love! I WILL! And I know…that when I do…you will be beside me.
FOREVER your angel…D
