Happy Anniversary, Love. I hope you liked your present…:) I had thought a long time about what I could give you. And there was only ONE thing that I knew you had been wanting….and it was SO funny when YOU suggested it….once again….we had the exact same idea!
I had not wanted to make a big deal out of it. You have given me so much recently and after all, these are only monthly anniversaries….not like 10 years or anything…but nonetheless, they mark a moment in time that has special meaning for us. Thank you for remembering it. Thank you for the fact that it is not only special to me, but special to you too. There have been SO many times in my life that I have wanted something to be special….only to find that I was the only one that had even given it a thought. It is nice to know that I have someone to share those special times with.
Although we have not been together the entire time, we have known each other a little over 6 months now! That must be like 6 years in SL time, no? I cannot believe how much my life has changed in the last 6 months. I cannot believe how much it has changed in the last 2 months! Never in my wildest dreams would I have imagined myself at this place! I don’t know if you will ever be able to comprehend what your love has done for me….and continues to do still. Only 6 short months ago, my life was filled with sadness and fear. I truly was barely existing, trying to put on a good face and pretend like everything was ok, TRYING to find a small bastion of peace ANYWHERE, trying to live, but wanting to die. I remembered seeing you then and the more I got to know you, the more I wanted to help. It was YOU I was trying to help, when *I* was the one really dying. And the more I was around you the more I could feel the wounds first being exposed, and then being healed….one at a time. I HATED the way you made me look at things that I did not want to see. Things that I had spent YEARS trying to hide and that others NEVER saw, you seemed to see SO clearly and would MAKE me look at them. I couldn’t understand WHY you would not just let them be! Why couldn’t we just pretend that they did not exist and go on like that? Others I knew did it all the time. Even ones that I had lived with most of my life and that “loved” me did not care to look that hard. No, I was on my own. And so I hid it. And thought I did a very good job of it until YOU came along and MADE me see. And the way you made me feel then, is still the way I feel to this very day.
[2009/08/25 11:44] V grabs your head, kissing you hard.
El giggles…. I’m crazy I know
V: You’re… you’re the most wonderful girl I’ve ever met.
El blushes…Oh V
V: I’m sorry. Sounds like a cliche. I mean… we only know each other shortly.
El: No, but I KNOW I am just ordinary….. and that’s okay
V: You don’t know.
El caresses the side of his face
V: You’re incredible.
El: YOU make me incredible
V: You have been incredible before.
El: really???
V presses you tight against himself.
El: I love to feel you close love
V: I love that, too.
V: I’m so…
V: …I could eat you then and there.
V blushes.
El: I shall have to aquire some whipped cream then! and a spoon!
V: Mmmmh. I can provide that…somehow
El: why does that not surprise me???
V: Because you know me.
V leans his forehead against yours.
V: Wake me.
El reaches up to kiss him softly
El: No, dream forever.
V: This is so incredible.
El kisses him again
V feels a tear in the corner of his eye.
El looks him in the eyes, gently…. closes his eyes and kisses the tear. She tastes the saltiness and kisses it again.
El: may they always be tears of joy or tears of longing
V smiles.
El: but never sadness
V sighs.
El kisses his lips ever so gently.
V: You don’t know how you make me feel.
Elena Gremminger: No….
V: Like I arrived.
El smiles broadly…. I like that!
V smiles.
El: I have worked hard for that!
V: Yes, you did. I’m sorry I was so… distant at first.
El: I was worried.
V: I couldn’t believe it.
El: I was starting to think I could never reach you. You were harder than I expected…. to find you…. deep in there. I even started to think that maybe you didn’t like me at all and that I was just a bother to you
V: I’m sorry.
El giggles… it just made me try harder
V: It’s not every day you find the girl of your dreams out of the blue. And she even seems to like you.
El giggles…. when did you know that you liked me?
V: When I first saw you. You are perfect.
Thank you, love. I know that when a woman talks about her lover she refers to him as the man of her dreams. You ARE! You are the man IN my dreams….you are the one that has walked with me as a small child….during my feverish childhood dreams….it was you. You are the one I have looked for my whole life. You are the one that kept me searching. That is WHY we are SO comfortable….WHY we know each other….WHY it is all so familiar….WE have always BEEN. May my arms always be the ones in which you forever find comfort. May my kisses always be the ones to soften your furrowed brow and may my side always be the place I look to find you….my precious Vanish Kalinn!
Immer….L
