And so the packing begins! <squeals> Only 3 more days until I begin the journey of a lifetime! But when I think about it, I guess that is pretty much what the last year has been. It has been both wonderful and stressful at the same time.

I know you called me so quickly when I got home yesterday because you knew it would have been a hard drive home for me. And it was. I cried. I know you knew that. But I couldn’t bring myself to talk about it. It was not as though it was something I was forced to do. No one asked it of me. It was simply a matter of conscious for me. I know it was simply a legality. It was over more than a year ago….it needed to be put to rest…and now it has been. But it was hard. I know you and I are not the type to take our promises lightly. And even though I KNOW it had to be done sooner or later, it was still hard.

Thank you for understanding and for always being there for me. And so now…the packing begins…and once again…I have to look at my life and condense it to 2 suitcases. It is hard to believe that a life can be carried in so little. Even now, choices must be made…things to take and things to leave behind. And it makes me question myself again…WHY do I have to assign so much importance to immaterial things? But it is as though EACH item is a part of me and is hard to let go! But I keep thinking that for each thing I give up…there is another waiting for me.

I will still have some stressful days ahead of me. I may need your shoulder more than once to cry on. And your calm voice and tender words to calm me. You have always seen things so much clearer than I have. I will need your clear vision to to steer me thru the fog of pain that often comes with departure. I know you will be there thru it all and will see me thru…to the other side.

I love you, mein Liebster…..immer….D