My Precious Husband,

I know that we will come across many hard times in our lives. I guess that is the “downside” of choosing to live this life over and over. Unfortunately, it is fraught with pain and heartache, but it is a price we consider worth paying to be with each other. This…is one of those hard times for me. And I know that because it is hard for me, it is hard for you too. I know you have had a lot on your mind lately as well and I cannot help but wonder if that is part of what has made you feel so bad! I HATE that you are ill and I cannot be there to “nurse” you, although most of my “nursing” would consist of hovering and asking you stupid, irritating questions. And the only thing it would really accomplish would be to make ME feel better!(giggles) But oh…how I long for the day that I can at least touch your brow and know that you are truly ok. I know that you probably did not tell me you were not feeling well to spare me any added stress! And here I am going on and on, whining and crying, while you are ill! I am sorry, love! I will be fine. But I DO appreciate you being there for me. I suppose this is the one thing I was dreading from the beginning. And so…it is finally done. I know there will be ramifications from it for the next few weeks, but as you said, it is time for me to think of me now. That is something that I have not done in quite a while. And it still feels foreign.

One thing I know, and that is together…we can face anything and walk through it, still holding hands… to the other side. Will you walk through the fire with me, love? This will not be the last time we will have to do it. But I am grateful that you love me that much. Together we will always be a strong cord not easily broken. Will you firewalk with me? Let’s see where it takes us….

I love you eternally….

Forever your adoring wife and personal…:)…slave…D