What does it take to be a SDGB? I wish I knew! It is funny….I always remember you telling me “remember who we are.” It is like a mantra that plays over and over inside my head and the more it plays, the more I wonder….WHAT are we? It seems we are so different from most, I cannot help but wonder. It is sometimes even a little scary to think of it. But if I am really honest, I have known all along. And I suppose you have as well. I can remember as a young child realizing that I was “different”…and I just learned to accept it and move on. I actually kept it somewhat of a secret…afraid to tell anyone else…even my parents…although I think they knew. I have never told anyone…until you. And while others just thought me odd…or unusual…you seemed to know right away. I did not even have to tell you…you just knew. And I guess you would! It seems as we hold hands and walk through this world together we discover more and more what it means. We seem to remember things and acknowledge things that we have not before…and it somehow solidifies us even more.
I did SO enjoy our time together…as we try to solve the problems of the world and discuss the wonders of the universe! Not many people would care to do that…I suppose that COULD make us Super Dull Geeky Bores! But I found it exhilarating. And of course…our time together afterwards, was amazing…as always, love. How could I blame ANYONE for desiring and wanting you? But I CAN be terribly territorial as you saw the other day. I didn’t mean to make you uncomfortable, love… and I hope you know by now, that I am not overly or unreasonably jealous, but I do not mind defending what is mine…and you are! Today…when I heard you say….that you ARE mine…it pushed another of those buttons inside me! I know you have typed it to me many times, but to hear you SAY it….wow! It was amazing…and I will NEVER forget it. It brought tears to my eyes, love…and burned deep in my soul. You were SO soft and tender with me….SO loving…and yet…in the end… told ME I was most wonderful! How can that be? How can you love like that? How can you be real?
I cannot wait to see you and hold you! I think that for the first few hours I will just have to touch you ALL over to make sure you are really REAL and will not go away! And then I will just lay in your arms and feel your heart beat against my hand and listen to your breathing…and remember how many times I longed for that….how many times I cried thinking I would never feel it…how many times I thought that would never happen for me. And when the realization of that wonderful moment sinks deep into my soul, I will close my eyes and let the rhythm of your body gently rock me into a deep sleep…the sleep I for which I have longed so many years and let the wonder of it all heal my wounded body with the knowledge that I am home at last!
Until next we meet, my prince…
Your loving and adoring…..wife….D
