My precious husband,
I am sorry that I kept you waiting so long last evening and you were SO tired when I finally got there. You are AMAZING, love. You will never know how much it meant to me that you waited and that you felt so bad for needing to go to bed! I know how tiring it can be when you spend most of your day doing things that you REALLY don’t want to do! I hope you made a good dent in it. I hope your dreams are filled with me….and that you can feel how much I love you! I cannot wait until the day that I can kiss your tired lips and put you to bed “properly”! Even as I slept last evening, I felt your presence when I would rouse, and I kissed you in my dreams. I knew you were there. And I remember thinking after one of my dreams how wonderful it was to have you with me, even as I slept and my body rested. And even though my mind was subconsciously at work and my body was dormant…they BOTH still craved you…still needed you and still felt you in every fiber, every movement, every thought.
Every where I look I see you. I see you in the beauty of the clouds and the smell of the flowers….I see you in the silly love stories I watch, I hear you in the lyrics to the songs, I feel you in my heart as tears well up in my eyes thinking of your love for me. In one of the movies I watched last evening…the main male character told is paramour that she was like a drug to him…like his own personal heroin. And I knew how he felt. It was just a silly Hollywood movie…but those emotions are real for me. I know there are many out there that would say those kinds of “obsessions” are not healthy. Well…I have been UNHEALTY for a very LONG time. I have been in the kind of “healthy” love that others admire…and let me tell you…it is NOT all that people think it is. NO…if this is unhealthy…then so be it. It is EVERYTHING I have ever wanted and ALL that I need. YOU are ALL I will ever want. I am forever and irrevocably in love with you, my dear V. I am now, forever have been and forever will be…yours.
Your adoring…”addicted” wife….D
