My Sweet Lover,

For the last several days I have spent a lot of time going back over how we met, how we fell in love…asking questions of myself…marvelling at all we have done and become.  I look back at it almost feeling afraid that we hesitated so long…I was SO afraid…and I know you were too, but for different reasons.  I think maybe you saw things so much more clearly than I did, or than I would allow myself…and I wonder if even now it remains the same.  I can still remember every one of those first moments…the way I felt…how badly I wanted you….how much I needed you…all the things I wanted to say and was simply too afraid.

I am SO grateful that we did not let that fear stop us…in fact I even wonder if we COULD have stopped it.  Our love has always seemed to have a mind of its‘ own….kind of like someone I know!  It has seemed to take us and carry us to places that we never meant to go.  I have always hated it when people say a person has no control over who they love, I always felt like that was a bunch of bull…and now…I don’t know.  I am not sure that I could have NOT loved you….but I DO know…that I will NEVER NOT love you again. 

I remember the day that you made me look at my feelings for you that I KNEW that I was ready to love you….to admit it…and to let it take me…where ever it would lead.  Even though I tried to deny it the next day….it was just a feeble attempt to retreat….it did not last long…in fact, the next time I saw you…I knew….that this love was GOING TO HAPPEN…..I was ready to be yours…I was ready to sacrifice all…I was ready to be what you needed…I was ready to learn…I was ready for love!

“Ready For Love” by India Arie

I am ready for love
Why are you hiding from me
I’d quickly give my freedom
To be held in your captivity

I am ready for love
All of the joy and the pain
And all the time that it takes
Just to stay in your good grace
Lately I’ve been thinking
Maybe you’re not ready for me
Maybe you think I need to learn maturity
They say watch what you ask for
Cause you might receive
But if you ask me tomorrow
I’ll say the same thing

I am ready for love
Would you please lend me your ear?
I promise I won’t complain
I just need you to acknowledge I am here

If you give me half a chance
I’ll prove this to you
I will be patient, kind, faithful and true
To a man who loves music
A man who loves art
Respect’s the spirit world
And thinks with his heart

I am ready for love
If you’ll take me in your hands
I will learn what you teach
And do the best that I can

I am ready for love
Here with an offering of
My voice
My Eyes
My soul
My mind

Tell me what is enough
To prove I am ready for love

I am ready