El Firecaster

Fire from Within

Claimed

Posted By on March 30, 2010 in All, Tracked Daily | 0 comments

 

My Darling Husband,

I have noticed a difference in the way you speak to me lately.  I must admit, it is a difference I like.  You may not even notice, although I doubt that somehow…it is SO seldom that you don’t plan and MEAN every single word that you utter. 

For so long, I had felt unwanted, un-needed, uncared for…you changed all that.  It was something that you did not necessarily say…you showed me…you MADE me believe you.  I learned that your love was deep and your word was gold, your intentions true.  I have been able to bask in those things and I often think back to the love and security I felt as a child.  I was able to be me and knew I was loved by those responsible for me.  It was an environment that protected me and allowed me to grow and flourish.  I feel that same environment now.  And feel like I am finally allowed to breath, grow and be me…AND still be loved. 

As I was remembering our time together today (and yes, your words play over and over in my mind until they are replaced with new ones at our next meeting) I was trying to put a name on the way your words made me feel.  It is something that perhaps some women would not like.  They would not want it.  They might feel constrained by it.  It is one of the most GLORIOUS feelings in the word to me.  I have waited my whole life for it…I knew it was coming…I just did not know by whom I would be “claimed”.  Yes…that’s it…I feel CLAIMED!!!…like I have been lost…and the one to whom I rightfully belonged has come to claim me.  Does that make me owned?  I hope so!  Do those words frighten me?  Not at all!  I have WAITED for that!  For those who raise their eyebrows at such thoughts…I simply say you don’t understand it at ALL.  It does NOT mean you are told what to do…it does NOT mean you are controlled…it does NOT mean you are not allowed to be who you are…quite on the contrary.  ALL of those things I HAVE experienced in RL…and let me tell you…I was ANYTHING but claimed.  NO…it gives you the freedom to DO all those things! 

Being claimed is the most secure feeling in the world.  It is what I have waited for…It is the feeling that you KNOW someone is coming for you….and FINALLY they have!  And that with that claim, comes the protection and love and caring that a parent has for their newborn, the adoration that few will ever experience, the kind of love that will let you grow without fear…the kind of love that will NEVER intentionally hurt you…the kind that builds you up and never tears you down….you will NEVER feel more free!  It IS the kind of love that every woman *I* know wants and seeks, she just gets all hung up on semantics.

So…please love, claim me! 

CLAIM

–verb (used with object) (You notice that it is a verb…which means that it is something you DO…it is not just something that is said…it requires action.  and it is used with an object…and while most women HATE that word, I will gladly be your object as long as it is one that is always claimed!)

1.

to demand by or as by virtue of a right; demand as a right or as due: to claim an estate by inheritance. (Yes…you do have the RIGHT to do it.  I was meant to be yours from the beginning of time.  For the first time in my life I feel like the right person has finally asserted his “right” to ME…I have been waiting for you, love!)

2.

to assert and demand the recognition of (a right, title, possession, etc.); assert one’s right to: to claim payment for services. (I sometimes think this was hard for you for a while…you are so careful to give every person their freedoms and rights and never try to assert you ways or thoughts on anyone else.  I think it took you a while to understand that this was ok.  But when you DID finally see it, you held on…and decided that no one else would ever have what was rightfully yours again!  You understood that NO ONE else could love me like you can!)

3.

to assert or maintain as a fact: She claimed that he was telling the truth. (It IS a fact.  All you needed was to recognize it.  And now that you KNOW it, you have no problem in allowing it to be.  The thoughts or cares of others have no place.  You KNOW it as a fact…and claim it is SO.  I AM yours.)

4.

to require as due or fitting: to claim respect. (It IS WAY over due…and is SO fitting.  You know it…and now…you have no problem asserting it.)

 Thank you love….I have waited for it for SO long…you will never know what it means to me!  I LOVE YOU!

Forever YOURS…D

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