2010/03/25 2:51] Vanish Firecaster: Back then… I was afraid, because I could see this coming… and I was not sure if we could make it… I was afraid you couldn’t be with me because of your ‘situation’… and that we wouldn’t be able to make it.
El Firecaster: And so… If I had asked you THEN….what would you have told me?
Vanish Firecaster: I would’ve told you I’m afraid we can’t be together.
El Firecaster: I’m glad I didn’t ask. I didn’t want to see that possibility.
Vanish Firecaster holds her tight.
El Firecaster: I did not know WHERE it would lead….and at that point…I could not imagine THIS….I just needed to take it one step at a time.
Vanish Firecaster: Yes. But I also didn’t know you WANTED to.
El Firecaster: Well….I couldn’t TELL you that!
El Firecaster giggles.
Vanish Firecaster: Hmmmm. Always playing safe, are we?
El Firecaster laughs.
El Firecaster: Me? Hey… if you look CLOSLEY…*I* was the FIRST one to kiss YOU! It was on the cheek…but it was STILL a kiss!
Vanish Firecaster: Hmmm.
El Firecaster: STOP reading! I KNOW you are!
Vanish Firecaster: Tssss. On the cheek!
El Firecaster: STILL a kiss! ME FIRST!
Vanish Firecaster: Yeah, thank you very much.
El Firecaster holds out her hand for a point!
Vanish Firecaster: STILL playing safe there!
Vanish Firecaster hands her a point.
El Firecaster: What would you have done if I had laid a BIG one on you? Smack dab in the middle of *******!
Vanish Firecaster: Hmmm. I don’t know. I have no clue.
El Firecaster: You would have RUN!
Vanish Firecaster: Hmm… Would I?
El Firecaster nods.
El Firecaster: Either that…or attacked me…one or the other?
El Firecaster giggles.
Vanish Firecaster: Tsss. No.
El Firecaster: No?
Vanish Firecaster: No. I don’t run. And I don’t attack either.
El Firecaster: ooOOOHHhhhh… TOUGH guy!
Vanish Firecaster laughs… slaps her butt.
El Firecaster: So you just would have stood there? That would have been worse! Then *I* would have run!
Vanish Firecaster: No, I would have kissed you, of course.
El Firecaster: uh huh…
Vanish Firecaster: However, I would first have asked you if you really wanted that.
El Firecaster giggles… Oh YES! We must be introspective at a romantic moment!
Vanish Firecaster: Yes, of course.
El Firecaster: Then I would have asked YOU if YOU really wanted that!
Vanish Firecaster: Well, I did. If you would go with me, I would do anything.
El Firecaster: awwwww… El Firecaster kisses him.
El Firecaster: ANYTHING?
Vanish Firecaster: Yes, anything.
El Firecaster caresses his face softly.
El Firecaster: My sweet baby!
Thank you, my prince for loving me. You have always seemed to see things more clearly than I. Perhaps I have just not wanted to look at them for so long that I quit asking questions or seeing possibilities. I KNEW I loved you even before that first kiss, but I would not even LET myself look at what could be. I am SO grateful that you could see the big picture and that you loved me enough, even then, to not let me go. I am SO grateful that you seem to see things so clearly and seldom let your vision get clouded by other things. You are straight and steadfast and that means the world to me. I know I can count on you…my rock in a strong storm.
At that time, I remember feeling like I was standing on the edge of a precipice…looking over the cliff not knowing what was below. I was afraid the climb would be steep and scary. And wondered if I should even try it at all. But you showed me, that when you took me by the hand, we could take it one step at a time and you would steady me if I started to fall. You even showed me that we did not always have to climb, we could at times fly! I feel like we made it down some really steep slopes and had finally gotten to a resting place, taking time to catch our breath and replenish our resources. And now, yet again…here we are…looking over the edge….once more….I put my hand in yours and….Yes, love….I will go with you.
Forever your most beloved wife…D
