Oh love!

Once again I have sat here most of the night trying to decide what to write in the TD.  If your aim was to make me speechless it has worked!!  I am almost afraid to be otherwise!

A million questions and thoughts seem to be spinning in my head…none of which I can really verbalize…most of which center around whether or not I am dreaming!  Is it really possible?  Oh My God….really???  And then about the time that I accept it…and start to think that I am NOT dreaming…it IS real and it CAN happen…then I get scared to death!  You remember, when I wrote you the letter revealing all my “flaws” what I told you I counted on!  That would pretty much be blown right out of the water, huh?  OH MY!  Makes me shake just thinking about it!  NEVER EVER in a million years when you asked to talk to me, did I expect that!  I never expected that at all!  As I said, I was happy with just the shared THOUGHT of it!  I would never LET myself hope for more. 

Oh love!  Perhaps I shall try to sleep and see if it is still real when I wake!  And then I think…will I ever be able to sleep again!  OH MY!  Thank you, love.  Thank you.  And even if it never happens…the thought that it was planned for and wanted….wow…that means the world to me, love.  And so…I guess there is nothing left to do, but prepare…and wait to see what the next step on this amazing journey will be!  All I know, is that no matter what does or does not happen…I will ALWAYS love you and you will ALWAYS be mine. 

Forever your wife…D