Good morning, my prince. I am sorry you had to be up so early today, but I hope that this will bring a smile to your face and a fond remembrance as you go about the more unpleasant dealings of your day.
It was one month ago today that I first touched that beautiful face of yours. Just 4 weeks ago I felt your soft lips on mine for the first time in this life. And of course it was then, that we first consummated our love and began our journey in this “real” world, together…one…in every sense of the word.
It feels like yesterday that I came here, afraid and unsure of everything around me except my love for you. I still feel that way sometimes, but yesterday for the first time I felt really comfortable with my surroundings and I think the reality that I REALLY LIVE here has started to sink in. I walked outside onto our driveway and looked at the bushes and plants and as I stood on the balcony and watched you drive up and get out of the car and instantly look up at me, I felt as though…I was complete. It was an “epiphany”. And I hate to use that word…it is SOOOO over used..but I don’t know what else to call it. It was that special moment in time that I FINALLY figured out that this IS real…and as you told me…I CAN be happy here. I still have to remind myself of that sometimes…that it is OK to be happy.
Thank you, love for putting up with me and for your patience in those times that I have felt lost or unsure of my footing. I am still finding my place. Please…don’t give up on me. I know you think that you tell me so many things and that I just don’t hear them. But I do. I really do. When you told me that you were very much in love with me, you will never know what that meant to me. I have been “loved”….whatever that means…but I am NOT sure I have ever had anyone be IN love with me. I would have to say that you are the first…and the only. I know how incredibly in love I am with you…how I can literally feel my mind grow numb and my heart flutter just thinking of you. What is SO incredible…is that it seems to grow stronger everyday…and I cannot help but wonder how that is possible. There are SO many times that I think it is just NOT possible for me to love you one BIT more than I already do…and yet, it seems to happen over and over everyday.
Each day that I see you, there is something new and interesting that I discover. You become more and more familiar to me…and your touch and smell and taste are so amazing! I sometimes feel embarrassed that I have to touch you every time you get close to me, but I cannot help it. I am just drawn to you. And I suspect that will always be the case. SO I HOPE it is not too uncomfortable for you. I will try to learn what you like and don’t like and act accordingly…but I have a feeling that I will ALWAYS and forever be incredibly attracted to you. I have to admit….I had to stare as I watched you bathe the other evening. You are SO beautiful, love! And I just sat there and thought of what a lucky woman I am and how much I love you. I plan on loving you for the rest of my life, love. I will try to give you the time you need to do your work and to rest and recuperate, but you will never be alone again, love. I will, for the rest of my life be by your side, my angel…immer…..
Your adoring wife and personal…:)…slave…..D
