My Precious Husband,

Thank you for being so good to me, love. I know there are many things for me to learn…and it may be a while until I find my place. I know it should be a little disturbing to me, but it was kinda good to hear that you are sometimes playing things by ear and have not figured everything out yourself.

Tonight as I lay in your arms and we laughed and joked about what we would be in the next life….and spoke of all the lives we have lived in the past, I could not help but feel somewhat comforted. Comforted in that you reminded me, once again, that we should not miss out on the “right now” for looking to the future (or past for that matter) and it felt comforted as we began to share of what our past lives might have been.

I am SO terribly happy, love…so grateful to be here….and every moment with you is like a little moment in heaven. Each time I caress your face and kiss your lips, I am reminded of how LONG I have waited for that moment and of the reality that has finally lent itself to us. But I cannot help but feel that something has been lost…and you KNOW how sentimental I am. We have always managed to blend our 2 worlds together very well. And we have often talked of how important our virtual lives are to us…and yet somehow, I feel like it has been abandoned. It felt good the other night when we were both online together…chatting in group chat…and while I know I am sitting in the same room with you, looking at your smile and hearing your laughter, there is just something about it that felt good…and stable…at a time when things sometimes feel rocky.

I know that BOTH our lives are currently in a state of flux…SO much change…and much more still to come. I know it will be stressful as we adjust to our new surroundings and learn how to truly live together. But I hope, that when the dust all settles and we are firmly planted, that we can pick up where we left off…and continue our journey…together in a virtual world in some capacity. I feel responsible for the lack that you have felt regarding your work and often worried that I was causing such…and now I know that my concerns were not totally unfounded…and so…I feel guilty…asking for any more…and of course, it will not need to be as intense as it once was, now that we ARE together in RL. But it was in a virtual world that I found you and fell in love with you. It was in a virtual world that I discovered who I am and I feel like a presence in that virtual world reminds me of that fact…something that can easily get lost in the world that we currently inhabit. So…when the dust has settled…and things are caught up and you don’t feel quite so drained, may you turn your remembrance to things in another world…another place, for us to explore and enjoy and live.

Immer, love…in any world…..D