Happy Anniversary, love! NEVER in my wildest dreams, did I think a year ago today, that I would be celebrating this day in your arms, in our home, with you!
The last year has truly been one of the best years of my life. It is almost hard to remember now the terrible pain and confusion I was feeling back then. I remember a year ago feeling SO happy to have found you and yet SO sad to think that our virtual love would never be “real”. I was SOOOO wrong. Our love has always been REAL and now we just get to share it in both worlds.
I am SO happy love. It just seems like each day gets better and better. Will I ever get used to the feeling of old and new at the same time? Sometimes when I look at you…it is so odd to have that sense of always having known you. And yet, when you hold me…I know I have always been there. I can feel myself in your heartbeat as I lay my hand upon your chest. I remember the feel of your lips on mine…the taste of you in my mouth….the feeling of your hands on my body. And I must admit, at times it is hard to think of much else…you feel SO good, love. You are a perfect fit for me. You satisfy me like no other and my only desire is to be pleasing to you. That is my purpose in this life, love…to please you. May you always find pleasure in me, mein Koenig.
I know the next few months will be busy. There will be much to do, with the move and the renovations to come. I will TRY to leave you alone long enough to allow you to accomplish all that must be done. But I will admit…it will be hard. I cannot help wanting to touch you and feel you all the time. And of course, once I touch you…and smell you…I cannot help but want you…and I would love to think that it is only because we are “new” that I feel that way….and that in time it will wear off, but I am afraid that will never be the case. I think I will ALWAYS desire you, love. As I said, I will TRY to curb it, but it may be something that you will always have to “bear”! <giggles>
As I looked thru our pictures I came upon these, of us in the chocolate pool that you put together for me for our first one month anniversary. SOOOOO much has happened since then. I went back and looked at the very first note I wrote you to celebrate that event and found this:
“But what we cannot do…..is take it out and touch it with our earthly hands, thus making things hard and painful at times. Is that not enough for us to bear? When you think about how easy our love is, never forget that it comes at a great price….and that….is enough….we have given and fought and begged enough. It should be…and is…..easy. And so with the greatest pleasure, comes the greatest pain, knowing that this love can never be touched, but only felt in our spirits. Where it continues to live on forever.”
I am grateful, love that I was wrong and that it has finally been touched. May we NEVER be left wanting again…
To all the many wonderful years ahead, my angel….
Immer….your ADORING wife and eternal…:)…slave…D
