Why do I try? I do I try to fool you at all? I was hurriedly trying to tell you good bye today so that I would not cry. I could feel that awful ache in my soul knowing that I would have to leave you once again and so I desperately tried to put on my “happy voice” and quickly say good bye before you would know. But it was too late. When I heard you say “Don’t be sad”….it unleashed the tears that I was trying so valiantly to hold back. I don’t know why it seems that it is getting harder each time I have to leave you. It has always been hard. I have written about it before. But now…it just seems to tear at me each time I have to leave you. I know it will not be for long. Just a few hours at the very worst. And you would think I would be able to remind myself that it will just be a few days now…and I will be in your arms at last….again….home…where I belong.

I know how I feel. I know how my heart ACHES for you…it hurts. But when I hear YOU say the same things…when I hear how YOU feel and how much it means to you….oh love! It reinforces everything I know….everything I believe…everything I want.

I know I have told you before that when I hear you say “I love you, *****” that it pushes a little button inside me…it is the same when I hear you say that you are looking forward to me being there. Or that you cannot wait for me to get there…or that in a X days we will be together. It does something inside me that makes me love you even more. And today when you said “IF I did create you, then I created you to be loved by me….” Oh love….you will never know what that meant to me.

I know I am yours. Completely. Totally. Dedicated to you. I will love you in return, with all of my heart, forever. There will never be another that will have my heart. There has never been one to have it so fully before. It was created by you, for you, to be loved by you and to love you in return.

When you did finally hang up from our call today, the tears flowed down my face and I just sat there, looking at the computer…my arms empty…your voice gone. I looked at all the things I normally check and plurked a line…and saw your response…and it immediately cheered me up. I saw the song and listened to it and could feel you near. Never goodbye, love. It is never goodbye with us. I know that. We are eternal…Immer, my prince…Until next we meet again…

Your creation……D