She sat at her desk with the fan blowing her hair and she laughed as she thought that she would surely end up with her neck hurting! He had brought such pleasure to her life. She listened to music he had given her and took solace in the fact that they were songs that he too listened to and loved! There were so many things they shared and loved. Sometimes it bordered on “freakish”. She thought of the times that people had mistaken him for her and vice versa on the blog site. And she could not help but wonder if perhaps they WERE so melded together, that even others could see it and had trouble distinguishing one from the other. She read his latest blog post where he had mentioned his “partner, El”…and she could not help but feel prideful! She WAS proud of it. There were many things that he wanted her to be proud of, but THAT….she had no trouble with! She so much LOVED being his wife and partner and for anyone to connect her to him…well…that was one of the most wonderful things she could think of.
She remembered his loving smile and soft brown eyes and longed to see him again. She hoped that in the near future her eyes would not be so red and goopy and her nose swollen and running and then perhaps they could “see” each other again. She knew it was futile, that soon he would see her “in all her glory”! And there would be no hiding, but until that time…she could not bring herself to show that side to him. She KNEW it would not affect his love for her in the least. In fact, it would probably endear her all the more to him. But yet she still had a hard time doing it…and so she hoped for a speedy recovery so they could meet again.
She thought of his words: [2010/06/10 3:15] Vanish Firecaster: You know….even though that’s little comfort, but I know…I KNOW there is nothing that can happen to bring us apart.
He would probably never know how much those words meant to her. There were many things that worried her or bothered her, but THAT had to be the worst one. The thought of being banished to a life without him, was almost more than she could handle. She tried not to even let the thought cross her mind…and yet..it did occasionally creep in, always causing her great pain and grief. She did not know WHERE he got this “knowing” of things. But she wished it was a trait that she had “inherited”. Until that time…she would have to trust his instinct. Up to this point, it had always been right. She had no reason to doubt it now.
[2010/06/10 3:17] Vanish Firecaster: You’ll feel better when I have you here safe and sound.
Until then, my prince…I will put my trust in you and the One that created us….
Forever your adoring wife…D
