Mein Liebster,
I have thought all day of the things we did today, the things that were said. I always have SO much fun with you, love. It matters NOT what we do…how we end up there… or why we stay. All that matters is that we are together. WE make it fun! It is truly like we feed off of each other…creating sweet, sweet moments of laughter…jest…tenderness…intimacy and love. The last few weeks have seen our relationship grow leaps and bounds…seeming to forge an even deeper love than I knew was humanly possible. We have found a level of commitment that few find and each MOMENT that we are together just seems to solidify it further. It doesn’t matter if we just talk about things that happened during the day or events from our childhood, even the most mundane things are arousing and interesting. I often wonder when it will stop. I think to myself that it cannot possibly stay like that…and it does not…it gets better! It has been 7 months and I am even MORE intrigued by you than I was the day I committed myself to you. And I know me…and know what I am capable of…and I KNOW that there will NEVER be a day that I will not love you and be moved by you.
I am often surprised at the way we seem to think the same things at the same time. I often have to type something or say something different because you beat me to it (and with less typos, I might add!). And today when you started talking about the room all I could do was smile, because I had thought the exact same thing. It was dark and dingy, nothing to be excited about. It was not pretty, not anything that anyone would ever really want…and yet…as I looked around…all I could do was look at you…and think that it was perfect. It was alone…it was just you and I…it had a bed…dimly lit…and all I could think was…this is ALL I need. If I never had anything more than THIS…I could be happy for the rest of my life. All I have EVER wanted, love, was YOU…just you! You have given me SO much…in both worlds…and continue to do so, daily. But all I NEED in ANY world…is you…just you. We are bonded SO deeply, SO eternally that my soul is satisfied and ACHES when it is apart from you, although it knows you are never far and will eternally be mine…as I am yours.
[2010/03/11 3:11] El Firecaster: I NEVER get enough of you, love! What is wrong with me?
Vanish Firecaster: MMmmh. Dito. Sounds like a serious case of love.
El Firecaster: Yes….. I’m afraid so….. a consuming case I would say! May I NEVER recover!
Vanish Firecaster: MMmmh. Yes, hopefully!
Vanish Firecaster holds her tight in his arms.
El Firecaster kisses him softly, looking at him. I love you SO much, ***. I am not sure how I EVER lived without you!
Vanish Firecaster smiles. Strange, innit?
El Firecaster nods… yes!
Vanish Firecaster: I don’t think we ever did.
El Firecaster lays her head against him, snuggling close to him.
Vanish Firecaster closes his eyes, holding her.
[2010/03/31 4:41] El Firecaster kisses him softly. I love you SO much, ***.
Vanish Firecaster smiles and holds her tight. I love you too, sweetness.
El Firecaster: How did I ever live without you?
Vanish Firecaster smiles. Did you ever live without me?
El Firecaster giggles softly. No….in more ways than one.
El Firecaster smiles wistfully and kisses him.
Vanish Firecaster smiles. And you, too, will not lack any more.
