This time of the month ALWAYS brings this memory back to me. I have had some WONDERFUL memories in my life…and as most people…some NOT so wonderful ones. But this one…sometimes I think my entire life was leading up to this one moment in time. We were both SO afraid, so unsure and at the same time never more sure of anything in our lives. I remember that after this moment, our lives were never the same….and while I have shared and will share many firsts with you…there is nothing quite like the first kiss….
May they NEVER end, my prince….D
[2009/08/24 12:07] El: No pose balls?
V smiles….No. I had the whole place full of them. In the past.
El: What happened?
V: I broke up.
El: Welllllll…. put yourself back together and put them back! I MUST have pose balls!
V: What for?
El giggles… fun!
V: They were all for couples anyway.
El: So??? I sit on those too… hahaha… You know I have to sit on all of them.
V: Mmh. Yes.
El throws a rock at V.
V catches it.
El: rrrrrrrrr.
V skids it over the water.
El: You better watch out! I hear there are falling boulders in here!
V: Mmh. Yes, I know. I made them.
El: No pose balls!! I am bummed!
V smiles.
El looks for pose balls.
El: The waterfall is lovely.
El: NO POSE BALLS!
V smiles.
El: I could at least wash my hair there!… geez
V: Mhhh. I don’t have a pose for that, I think.
El looks him in the eye… why so quiet?
V: Memories. Sorry.
El: I’m sorry, babe.
V smiles.
El: Shall we make new ones????
V: Poseballs?
El: AND memories
V smiles.
El reaches over and kisses V on the cheek.
V takes you gently in his arms.
El lingers in his embrace… whispers… it is gonna be ok.
V smiles. What is?
El: All of it. You… me…..the past….the future.
V smiles.
El can feel his heart beat.
V: I hope.
El whispers… Really…it will!
V: What about… the boundaries?
El: We will cross those one at a time. We have already, have we not?
V: We have. We just don’t admit it.
El smiles. I know… and I know you know.
V kisses you gently.
El kisses him back…ever so softly.
V pulls you tight against himself… feeling you warm and soft… holding you… pulling your head against his chest… caressing your hair… carefully.
El lays her head on his chest… kissing him once more before softly pulling away.
El takes his hand… come on!
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El: whew…now I am dizzy!
V catches you before you faint.
El pretends to faint.
V laughs… holds you in his arms.
El: Pallas is watching you know?
V: Mmh. That’s another owl.
El: Pallas’s “friend”???
V: Maybe.
El: He is not as pretty as she is.
V: Mmh. But bigger.
El just stands close to feel his embrace.
V smiles…holds you tight against himself.
El gently sways side to side.
V smiles. I’m afraid, Ellie.
El carresses his face.
El: I know. I am too.
V: What are you afraid of?
El: That I am not good enough for you… can’t be enough for you.
V: shh… I don’t know. I don’t know what you can be.
El: …… nor do I.
V closes his eyes… places his lips on yours… carefully… breathing in deep… smelling you… tasting your lips… pulling your soft body against his own…
El allows his every touch.
V: …gently sliding his tongue between your lips… licking along yours… slowly… gently…
El breaths hard and fast.
V: …circling around it… wetting our lips… kissing you passionately… hard… intense…
El really does feel faint.
V: …slowly pulling back… looking deep into your eyes.
El looks back.
Vsmiles.
El almost trembling.
V: Kinda hard to control oneself, innit?
El smiles.
V runs his fingers through your hair.
El lays her head on his shoulder.
(You know…as many times as I have re-lived this memory…I have never asked you the one question I was too afraid to ask you at the time…What were YOU afraid of?)
