The words had stung. She had known they were coming and yet she had not prepared herself for them. As much as they had shocked her, they had only served to strengthen her reserve. Her mother had always taught her to think things through thoroughly, make your decision and then stick with it, letting NOTHING change your mind, while always searching yourself to make SURE. She wondered what her mother would think now. The words had served to guide her many times through the years, not that she knew all the answers. Many, many times she had done or said the wrong thing, but one thing remained certain, she always THOUGHT that she had made the right decision at the time and she held her point of view until she had proven otherwise to herself, not to anyone else, but to herself. But this…it seemed like she had always considered it a possibility, but because of the rare chance of occurrence, she had not really allowed the words to form inside her head. And yet, here she was….and the words seemed to flow out of her, confirming everything she had ever pondered.
Her thoughts could not help but turn to him and wonder if he had REALLY thought this through…if he had answered all those questions in his own mind. And then she remembered, it was HIM, of course he had thought it through. There was NO HUMAN being on the face of the earth more like her. He HAD to have looked at every angle over and over before ever vocalizing it. The way they thought, the things they considered, the way they viewed things…all similar…all compatible.
Her life seemed to be moving and weaving its own path independent of her, although she KNEW she was ultimately in control. It had gone down roads that she had NEVER thought she would travel, and yet, here she was….And she found herself begging the question…”Is this REALLY want you want to do?” Never had she asked that more of herself than she had in the last 6 months. And as the question echoed in her head….she listened…so carefully….so quietly….and it started softly at first….and she strained to hear it. It was as though it was waiting, just waiting for her recognition, as it swelled and grew accompanied by bright vivid greens and yellows. It blended and melded into blues and reds, purples and pinks and she looked long and hard at the colors as they hit her senses firmly with a resounding….”YES”…and she knew…she HAD made the decision…and only one thing would ever be given the power to change it…HIM.
