El Firecaster

Fire from Within

I’m Free to Dream

Posted By on March 14, 2010 in All, Tracked Daily | 0 comments

My Precious Husband,

Have I told you how much I love you?  You mean SO much to me love.  I hope that I did not make you uncomfortable with my letter.  Thank you SO much for loving me just as I am and for putting up with all my silliness.  You are always SO comforting and reassuring.  I don’t know WHY I am always afraid… it is not like you have EVER given me reason to be.  It is just hard to unlearn years of things being a certain way I guess.  I am SO glad you are a patient man.  Sometimes I think you MUST be too good to be true…and then you just keep getting better!  It is almost scary !!  To think that you have waited SO long for something that you only dreamt about and then to find that it is REALLY true…it is almost unbelievable…and you just pray to God that you are not dreaming…and if you are…that you will never wake. 

I WANT to be open and honest with you love.  I have spent the better part of my life trying to hide, trying to be something that I thought someone would eventually love.  It took me a long time to accept the fact that was never going to happen.  And now I know that it was not anyone’s fault, not something I did wrong, not something I should have done different…it was just not with the right person.  But I felt like I had to do it…I had chosen it, I would live with it…and I WOULD make it work!  It almost killed me, in more ways than one.  Thank you love, for giving me the opportunity to be truly loved by someone that KNOWS how to love like I do!  You are the most amazing man I have EVER met and your love has allowed me to grow and mature beyond my wildest dreams.   

Thank you for the movie, love.  It was SO fun!  I LOVED watching it with you.  Did you know that it is the first foreign film that I have ever watched?    There are SO many “firsts” that I get to do with you!  And so many “lasts”….you are my LAST love, V…there will never be another.   Thank you SO much for sharing them with me and never making me feel silly or ignorant.  I LOVE our life together, my precious husband….it just seems to get better each day.  “Here with you…I’m free to dream”….every time I hear those words I immediately think of you…as I watch OUR story unfold each day.  What a TRULY blessed woman I am.  I know there are SO many things that you have wanted to share with someone for such a long time.  I am the one you gathered them for, love.  It was me.  We will do and share them ALL, my king…you will never have to want again…

Forever your personal…:)…slave…D

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