Thank you, love for being “a permanent” in my life at a time when few things are. I feel as though I go from day to day never knowing what will change… what new thing will happen…or what old thing will suddenly disappear. But the one thing I know…is that you love me…ME…not just some image on a screen or words spoken in another world. That love has and IS transforming me daily….allowing me to FINALLY be who I was meant to be!
I don’t know what the future holds….where I will end up….or what will happen…the only thing I know that will NEVER change is that you love me….before….now….and fuer immer….
You ARE mein Koenig….D
[2010/02/27 5:15] El Firecaster: you BAD BAD boy!
Vanish Firecaster smirks.
El Firecaster giggles….still struggling for air…. rubbing his face softly…God…. I love you!
Vanish Firecaster holds her tight.
Vanish Firecaster: I love you too, sweetness. I LOVE that I can share that with you. I had NO ONE to share it with. It’s SO special to me.
El Firecaster rubs his face looking at him… pulling his ear close to her lips… it is special to me too, love….god… you are amazing!
Vanish Firecaster laughs. I just like what I’m doing.
El Firecaster kisses the side of his face while whispering to him…and you ARE my king
Vanish Firecaster: Mmmmh… Then you’ll be my queen.
El Firecaster nods… gladly, love!
El Firecaster kisses him over and over softly, passionately… hoping that he can FEEL how much she loves him… what he means to her
Vanish Firecaster: I can, love. I know it. It’s one of the things I know without a doubt, one of the permanents in my life. It’s what I can lean on to.
El Firecaster smiles… holding his face close to hers feeling a tear fall down her cheek, nodding.
El Firecaster: yes… a permanent… immer
Vanish Firecaster squeezes her tight.
Vanish Firecaster: Immer. It always was. I loved you. You loved me. We always loved. We just weren’t together…Now we are.
El Firecaster: yes! YES! yes!…holds him close, closing her eyes feeling the tears flow freely down her face.
Vanish Firecaster kisses her forehead softly… rocks her gently in his arms.
El Firecaster: I am SO SO grateful, love.
Vanish Firecaster: Me too. That’s why I’ll do ANYTHING to keep you.
El Firecaster holds him tight
El Firecaster: I remember once you told me…. anything… and I did not know what that meant??
Vanish Firecaster smiles…. It means anything.
El Firecaster: I was afraid to believe it and I thought… surely not… it is just a phrase… a desire… a nice thought…but NOT a reality!
Vanish Firecaster smiles. No.
El Firecaster: I was wrong… and I am still amazed!
Vanish Firecaster kisses her softly…. I love you.
El Firecaster: yes… I TOO KNOW that! It is a FACT! Not a wish… not a nice thought… not a phrase …not something that was fake… it is REAL
Vanish Firecaster smiles…. Yes. ..It’s what we did all our lives and longer. It indeed is.
El Firecaster: It is not something that goes away when I log off
Vanish Firecaster smiles. No.
[2010/02/27 5:28] Vanish Firecaster holds her tight.
