Thank you, love, for holding me when I don’t feel well.  For caring enough to ask and wishing you could do more, for gently kissing my head and rocking me.  Thank you for sharing your hopes and dreams with me, for allowing me to see inside your heart and your head.  I want to live all those dreams with you, love, every one of them.  I know so many of them we share.  There are SO many of them that I have dreamt too….and just did not know WHO or WHERE you were!

I remember as a teen being in a creative writing class and asked to write a paper about something that moved me.  My paper was written about the great loneliness I felt.  You will never know how many times I wished I had that paper back so I could re-read what I had written…it was the first and last time that I shared it with anyone, until you came along.  Yes, I had been raised alone, but I was not lonely!  I just felt the great “loneness” that came from being separated from you.  It has taken me YEARS to figure it out.  It motivated everything I did, every song I listened to, every picture that moved me, every movie I watched, every story I read.  The great longing!  Always hunting and searching for YOU!  I no longer feel it, love.  I no longer have the urge to look, to hunt.  I am found.  All is as it should be.  My soul is complete.  Just as you feel you are finally the man you were meant to be, I too, feel that I am the woman that I was made to be.  THIS is who I am.  All these years I have tried to “fit”, tried to be who I thought I was supposed to be, the person that everyone else needed.  I did my best to please them and to play the role I had been given, whatever one that was at the time.  And all the time, my soul, kept telling me…this is not it!  This is NOT who you were created to be!  And I just stowed it away in my heart, not knowing what else to do.  NOW, I know.  I am your “other”.  THAT is who I am.  THAT is what I was created for and I don’t need to look again….EVER…..IMMER.